I feel like I just wrote this post...or maybe it is that a year in my life has not yielded much change. 2016 was not easy and I don't know why. Everything felt hard, like I was moving through jello. Somehow no decision I made was easy...each one coming with what felt like consequences and then we spent the last 6 weeks of the year sick. All four of us...off and on..sick. Never all healthy at the same time. But there was good too...ballet recitals and first days of school, holidays and birthdays and Saturday night movies nights and pizza at Romeos. That is what I want to hold on to. Not the feeling that nothing I do is enough...
So on to 2017. Tomorrow we kick off a new year. One that starts somewhat arbitrarily...and one that carries with it all the weight of the lost hopes and goals of the year before. My Facebook feed is already full of friends involved with MLMs telling all of us now is the time! 2017 can be your year! And in my house, the kids and husband, dog and cats are asleep, a Law and Order SVU marathon is on the TV and I have a paper to write. It does not feel like a "special" night. It did not occur to me to get a babysitter or let the kids stay up late to celebrate...
2017 is going to the be the year of contraction. Pulling inward to have more time to spend on what matters and less time behind the computer screen. I am going to commit to less and finish what I commit to. And heck...while we are being unrealistic I am also going to lose that last 20 pounds, eat better and run 5 days a week,
Happy New Year. May 2017 bring you most of what you want, and all of what you need.
Meleena
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