i met myself for coffee

I met my 15 year old self for coffee. 

I was late and she said she was worried I wasn't coming.

I ordered a coffee with cream and she asked for a coke while she fiddled with an unopened pack of Marlboro Reds.

She asked if we were happy. She asked if it was all worth it.

I couldn't lie to her.

I met my 20 year old self for coffee. 

I was late and so was she.

I was sober and she was still crashing from the night before. I ordered a coffee with cream and she asked for a coke while she rolled an unlit parliament between her fingers.

She asked if her and her boyfriend where going to make it.

I told her the truth.

I met my 29 year old self for coffee.

She was on time and didnt notice I was late because she was answering emails on her Blackberry.

I ordered coffee with cream and she asked for a coke without looking up from her phone.

She asked what she was suppose to do now. If she was going to make the right choice.

I told her what I would never tell anyone else.

I met my 40 year old self for coffee.

She had two kids with her and I didnt recognize her when I arrived late. I ordered coffee with cream and so did she. And two hot chocolates for the kids. 

She begged me for the truth.  I wish I had told her.